I sit here at school on Friday and my mind is just running like crazy. This past week I have seen alot. It started with my mom and I going to H and R block to do my taxes, it was a reality check to me showing me that I am growing up and I am having to do things that grownups do. Then my Mom and I went to go get some food and while we were waiting in line this lady who was 83 came up and started talking about her life and how she is so healthy and has a wonderful life with her children and grandkids. She was going off and she gave me this sence of hope and encouragement. While this lady talked about her experience in life my eyes filled with tears of joy because that was exactly what I needed that day.
A few days later I woke up and I was in just a terrable mood and didn't want to do anything but sleep and not see anyone. I ended up going to school but some interesting things happened to me. I was upset and down and like always my friends were there to lift me up but some mysterious person lifted me up in a very creative way, I walk into the girls bathroom and I see these yellow posted notes on the mirror and on the stall door  I read them and they made me smile I love how people randomly put encouraging notes in there for people to read. And it sure did make me smile and brighten up my day:)
This week has been really long but it has been one of the best weeks I have had in forever. I've learned alot about relationships, Love, and Christ. I've always struggled with relationships and thinking that I am not even close to worthy enough to be a friend, But this week I was shown that everyone is worthy enough to have friends and I also learned that people do care and that Life really isn't as bad as I had been thinking.
I thank god for my church my family and my friends everyday because they are always there for me and Help me all the time! I love all you guys:)
I LOVE MY LIFE!!

Love Letter

I go on my sisters laptop to go on facebook and look at a couple blogs and when I opened her laptop up I find this lovely message waiting for me and it was all in capital letteters. What a sweet sister to leave me such a loveing message! I love you too Hayze:)

LENA!
STAY OFF OF MY LAPTOP! IF I FIND YOU ON MY LAPTOP I WILL THROW A LOG OF POOP AT YOUR FACE! A LOG OF POOP THATS BEEN SITTING IN THE TOILET FOR DAYS AND IT HAS CORN AND OTHER WEIRD RANDOM FOODS THAT DONT BERAK DOWN. YOU DONT SIGN OFF OF THINGS! I WILL SLAP YOUR LITTLE HANDS WITH A RULER THATS MADE IN CHINA! IF YOU WERE A REAL SNEAKY PERSON YOU WOULD SIGN OFF OF THINGS BEFORE I KNEW! I WILL THROW A SCREAMING MONKEY AT YOUR BALLS! YEAH I SAID YOUR BALLS, CUZ I MEANT YOUR BALLS, CUZ YOUR A MAN! YOU HAVE BALLS AND A WEINER AND CHEST HAIR. LOTS AND LOTS OF CHEST HAIR! CHEST HAIR!

On BELAY!

The year 2012 is here, im not going to lie I was scared for this year before it even started. The end of 2011 was not the greatest, so many things were happening in my life and I tryed to make the best out of them but on December 31 I found out somthing that topped it all off and it made me scared for 2012 to come and for what it had in store for me and my family. New years eve we had some friends over to celebrate so I decided I would just have fun and make the best of it! That is exactly what I did, newyears eve and day has been the best start to a year that I could ever ask for.
I went to bed at 3:30am and woke up at 7:30am to get dressed and ready to go to church. When I got to church I felt like somthing was different. I am a part of our worshop team so I go to church early for a workers meeting and to reherse our song set. During the meeting and the rehersal I felt submission, I felt the worshop, I felt the LOVE. Worshop was amazing but the message god gave my pastor was even better. The message he had was a great way to start off the new year. I took so much from the sermon and I could tell that it touched many others aswell.
Today I make a vow to let go of the past and LIVE the life god has intended me to live and not fear what I have in store for my life but to have anticipation! Yes there is good things that have happened in my past,Yes I have learned from everything I have gone through, Yes I have been changed becasue of what I have experianced but I have gottten everything out of the past that I could possibly have recieved. The problem though was that I was dwelling on the negative of what I had done, on what had been done to me, and on the pain that I had gone through. I wasnt able to move forword. An illistration that my pastor used today in his sermon; if you try to walk forword while you are looking backwords you are not going to get anywhere, but if you turn around and face forword and dont look back then you are going to get somewhere. This is exactly what I needed to do I needed to just forgive the wrongings and move on because they had already been done and there is no way of changing what had already happened.
 I NEED TO MOVE FORWORD!!

MY GOAL FOR 2012

I need to Forgive, Forget, LOVE unconditionaly, Face Forword, Believe God Can do anything and that he only has the best intended for me I just need to work as a team with him so I can take the steps nessesary for me to become the person he has intended me to be so I can live for him and share that life with others, and I need to not wory and be afraid because god will always be there with me and keep me safe(worrying about somthing dosn't get you anywhere, you have to act apon it and its not as scary as it seems when you are sitting there worrying).

2012 Here I come I am going to LIVE my life to the fullest for god!

I challenge you to take the stand too, along with me!!